The First Day Answering to a Bossman
I can sum up my first day with two words:
Hated
It
Yes, yesterday was my first day working for someone else. Some might wonder if the thought crossed my mind to return to porn production. I have to admit, answering to myself is nice. Setting my own schedule is heavenly. Producing porn, however, is not. The desire has been completely removed from my being, and days like today won’t bring it back. One thought that did cross my mind, however, is how depressing it is to give up my freedom all month to make less than I used to make in two days while self-employed (focus on the positive, Donny, focus on the positive).
Do I hope to be self employed again anytime soon? More than you can imagine. The sooner the better (so send all your friends and congregation members to my blog and tell them to click those Google advertising links). But porn production will not be the vehicle that takes me there.
I spent a lot of time praying today. It was a fight to keep negative thoughts out of my head. During times when I had a few moments to myself I pulled out Searching For God Knows What by Donald Miller. It really helped get my mind back where it needed to be.
Even so, at the end of the day I came home in a bit of a funk. I logged on to check my email and several of you had written me. The encouragement in those emails nearly brought tears to my eyes.
It also helps that I’ve added more than 60 Christian blogs to my Google Reader. After reading several dozen blog entries from Christians all over the world, my mood was raised. I’m really starting to get what Paul meant in Hebrews chapter 10 when he told us not to forsake assembling together. Even if it was only a “virtual” assembly it sure helped today.
If you have a blog make sure to post your URL as a comment. I’ll add you to my Google Reader. Who knows: the words you write just might change someone’s day.
PS: Waking up to an alarm clock sucks!
Donny, I cant believe that through all of this hardship that you’re still going strong. Me on the other hand I’m about to fall apart, but every time I read one of your blogs I feel like I need to lean a little farther into the church, and I feel comfort. Thank you.
Donny, keep pressing on! People change, jobs change and everything changes but God. My soundtrack suggestion for days like these would be “Pressing On” by Relient K. It’s funny, real and inspiring.
Check out my blog: http://blog.myspace.com/solshine7
Take care and God bless!
i remember feeling the same as you, haveing to get up early did suck,but it feels great being in gods will…..
gday mate,
I read your blog today, I really appreciate your openess and authenticity.
I know how you feel about having to work for someone else and finding it a drag. I’ve felt like that many times and would like to be self-employed one day too.
I will pray for you through this week and hope that you find encouragement thinking about eternal things… I also hope that things improve at work.
Here is the address for my blog-
http://nickflight.blogspot.com
I hope you find something encouraging on it, just I have found your blog encouraging.
Now try getting up at 4:30am and working a split shift. HATE IT!!!
You know, just because your previous production experience is in the porn industry, it doesn’t mean you should give up production….what about using it for good, and still being your own boss? Would that be an option, there is a market for positive messages, and it is more necessary now than ever…I think it would be cool if you got all of your friends who have broken out of that industry to do a movie, maybe to be featured in churches when they have their pornography awareness rallies.
God be with you!
Donny,
You are awesome. I love your honesty. Keep fighting for that positive attitude. As I read your blog I was picturing an athlete who at first was struggling in their event/game or whatever, but they did not give up, they found a way to win. Have a fantastic day!
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Hang in there buddy, first days are usually the worst.
Ron
If it helps you at all, I had a pretty bad day yesterday too. I only made $2,900.00 from the shoots I did and for some reason, not a single sign up or rebill on my sites even though the day before was a record day.
On top of that, the weather here is miserable at best and I caught a slight cold. In your next prayer session, kindly thank God for inventing NyQuil for me.
I feel your pain, brotha.
Donny,
Use your new employment for the economic security it affords. While doing so, use your talent and creativity to develop a strategy for a business model that will allow you to become independent.
There are certainly advantages to being self-employed. I had to remind myself of that this morning when I arrived at my office at 7:30 AM to meet with a client who did not arrive and has not called.
A definite advantage to being self-employed just presented itself: I shall leave early!
- David
Some advice Donny – If you want to stay with Google Adsense you should stop telling people to click on the ads. See their Terms and Conditions The first sentence in the “Prohibited Uses” section says, “You shall not, and shall not authorize or encourage any third party to: (i) directly or indirectly generate queries, Referral Events, or impressions of or clicks on any Ad …”
Bosses suck, unless your the boss. I view everyday waking up and going to an under-paid job as how is God going to use me today?
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http://www.lifeasamorehart.blogspot.com
some days are good, and other days are bad. Nothing a cold beer can’t take care of!!!
“Do I hope to be self employed again anytime soon? More than you can imagine. The sooner the better (so send all your friends and congregation members to my blog and tell them to click those Google advertising links). But porn production will not be the vehicle that takes me there.”
This will get you banned from google immediately and I suggest you move it. This is especially true since you brought some haters with you from GFY.
Praying for you. Amazing story.
Noel Heikkinen