The porn stories series begins a little earlier than expected.

For the last half hour Belinda and I have been consoling a crying girl who showed up at our house this evening. She begged and pleaded for us to have her photos removed from the internet. Her life, in her own words, has “become a living hell”.

She lost a good job because, according to her boss, she “has too much drama in her life right now”. What is that supposed to mean? It means the boss grew weary of her co-workers talking about the “porn star” in their midst. She was made aware that her presence disrupted the company.

Her boyfriend will leave her if the photos can’t be removed from the internet. He can’t bear having friends teasing him about his “porn star” girlfriend exposing everything for all the world to see.

She told me, “I never thought anyone I knew would see these. There are thousands of websites out there. I just didn’t think they’d be found.”

She begged and pleaded to return the money she was paid in exchange for her photos being removed from the sites for which she’d posed. I had to let her know there is nothing I can do for her. There are hundreds of producers around the world, all of whom have models that change their minds and want to reverse their decision to work in the adult industry. The companies to whom we sell our content generally ignore all requests for removal.

Barely a week ago, this model found out she’s pregnant. She cried as she explained her horror at the thought of her child being teased about having a mother who was involved in pornography.

She’s been dealing with this for weeks, and finally showed up on my door because she doesn’t know what else to do. The stress is overwhelming, and can’t possibly be good for her developing baby.

Unfortunately, removing her photo and video content from the internet (if that were even possible – which it’s not) would not end her problem. The people who have been circulating this material have undoubtedly saved it to their hard drives. They’ll continue sharing it even if the content is pulled.

If, in the future, this model applies for a position that requires a morality clause be signed (a practice that is becoming more popular all the time, by the way) this girl will not qualify. I know this from experience, as another of my models lost a position due to such a clause. This girl’s entire future was changed for the worst when she posed for us on June 26th, 2006.

This story is tame in comparison to those I’ll share with you in the future. But this one is bad enough.

And let’s call it as it is, folks: consumers of porn are not without blame. In a world that lives by the rules of supply and demand, the customer ultimately initiates the entire process. If there was no demand, I would never have produced content of this model. I would never have had the money to use to entice her. We all fuel this vehicle called pornography. We’re all in it together.