Comments on: Emotional Roller Coaster, a Healed Ear and a 45lbs Lighter Donny http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/ The Blog of Donny Pauling: former porn producer, changed by Grace and Love... Sun, 14 Mar 2010 05:49:58 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.1 hourly 1 By: Woosh! http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1212 Woosh! Wed, 13 Jun 2007 03:29:59 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1212 Hi Donny, Please don't kill yourself. Don't listen to your former friend in the porn industry. He speaks from a man's point of view and not God's point of view. Remember that Peter was once rebuked for stopping Jesus's Plan to die on the cross for us? Satan was behind it. That message is not from Jesus or God, it's from Satan and it is a lie to drag you down into the pit of hell. Don't listen to the devil. Jesus paid the most expansive price for our lives and I believe He has the power to keep you from falling. I always remember this verse we sing alot at church: Now unto Him who is able to keep, Able to keep us from falling And present "DONNY" faultless Before the presence of His glory Thessalonians 5:23 May God Himself, the God of peace, santify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming ouf our Lord Jesus Christ. The One who calls you is *faithful* and he *will do it*. Hi Donny,

Please don’t kill yourself. Don’t listen to your former friend in the porn industry. He speaks from a man’s point of view and not God’s point of view. Remember that Peter was once rebuked for stopping Jesus’s Plan to die on the cross for us? Satan was behind it. That message is not from Jesus or God, it’s from Satan and it is a lie to drag you down into the pit of hell. Don’t listen to the devil.

Jesus paid the most expansive price for our lives and I believe He has the power to keep you from falling.

I always remember this verse we sing alot at church:

Now unto Him who is able to keep,
Able to keep us from falling
And present “DONNY” faultless
Before the presence of His glory

Thessalonians 5:23
May God Himself, the God of peace, santify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming ouf our Lord Jesus Christ. The One who calls you is *faithful* and he *will do it*.

]]> By: Ric http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1211 Ric Mon, 23 Apr 2007 18:54:43 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1211 I guess your decision to convert to Christianty was correct. You obviously were going through a depresive phase and have you stayed in the other life, you probaly you will be dead now. Praying is ok because it releases the chemicals in the brain who cause happiness. That why religious people are on the average happier than non religious people and live longer. But depression sometimes is a deeper problem, sometimes with a organic origin. One of my critic to many evangelical churches is the adversion to any form of psychological therapy, specially when drugs are involved. You might need professional help and the drugs. So keep praying, keep building you network of christians friends but also seek first quality medical care. You should also advise the same thing to Crissy Moran, who seems to be going through the same problems. Depression. God bless you all. I guess your decision to convert to Christianty was correct. You obviously were going through a depresive phase and have you stayed in the other life, you probaly you will be dead now. Praying is ok because it releases the chemicals in the brain who cause happiness. That why religious people are on the average happier than non religious people and live longer. But depression sometimes is a deeper problem, sometimes with a organic origin. One of my critic to many evangelical churches is the adversion to any form of psychological therapy, specially when drugs are involved. You might need professional help and the drugs. So keep praying, keep building you network of christians friends but
also seek first quality medical care. You should also advise the same thing to Crissy Moran, who seems to be going through the same problems. Depression. God bless you all.

]]> By: John http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1210 John Wed, 18 Apr 2007 07:47:52 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1210 Donny, your openness, sincerity and determination are an inspiration to me. Your blog is now one of my staples. Keep writing, and keep on keeping on. Awesome. John. Donny, your openness, sincerity and determination are an inspiration to me. Your blog is now one of my staples. Keep writing, and keep on keeping on. Awesome.

John.

]]> By: Webmaster http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1209 Webmaster Mon, 16 Apr 2007 09:49:33 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1209 AaronM, I'm sure you talk to Donny in person still, if not my apologies. Am I nuts to think he has gone completely batshit insane? Not in a sarcastic way, I think he needs help desperately and the peanut gallery here is too busy singing him praises to give a shit. Sickening AaronM,

I’m sure you talk to Donny in person still, if not my apologies. Am I nuts to think he has gone completely batshit insane? Not in a sarcastic way, I think he needs help desperately and the peanut gallery here is too busy singing him praises to give a shit.

Sickening

]]> By: maxgrace http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1208 maxgrace Mon, 16 Apr 2007 03:15:34 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1208 Hi Donny, You know those cruel words from your "friend"? The ones that say you have inner demons? Consider that his own prophetic autobiography. It's all about him and his projection. I am very glad you didn't follow through; and I'd be personally grieved and feel a great sense of loss ... and be totally ticked off... weren't around. Bottom line: I am super glad you're in my life. Let's keep it that way. Bill Hi Donny,
You know those cruel words from your “friend”? The ones that say you have inner demons? Consider that his own prophetic autobiography. It’s all about him and his projection.
I am very glad you didn’t follow through; and I’d be personally grieved and feel a great sense of loss … and be totally ticked off… weren’t around.
Bottom line: I am super glad you’re in my life. Let’s keep it that way.
Bill

]]> By: Celeste http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1207 Celeste Mon, 16 Apr 2007 01:43:26 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1207 I wondered why you hadn't blogged in a while. I almost sent you an "are you okay?" message on myspace and, of course, I regret now that I didn't. I'm glad that you are okay. I think you made a wise choice to try to seek help that night at the hospital. I almost can't believe that they would send someone away. It makes me worried and a little upset to think that there may be others that are being turned away too. I'm glad you're back to blogging. Also, some people are always quick to critize, especially if you're in the public eye. They're wrong. They will say horrible things and, because you regret some of the things in your past, you'll think they have a clue. But they don't. Even if they've known you a long time, they still don't get to decide who you are or who you can become. They just don't get to have that privilege. Congrats on the weight loss!! take care I wondered why you hadn’t blogged in a while. I almost sent you an “are you okay?” message on myspace and, of course, I regret now that I didn’t. I’m glad that you are okay. I think you made a wise choice to try to seek help that night at the hospital. I almost can’t believe that they would send someone away. It makes me worried and a little upset to think that there may be others that are being turned away too.

I’m glad you’re back to blogging.

Also, some people are always quick to critize, especially if you’re in the public eye. They’re wrong. They will say horrible things and, because you regret some of the things in your past, you’ll think they have a clue. But they don’t. Even if they’ve known you a long time, they still don’t get to decide who you are or who you can become. They just don’t get to have that privilege.

Congrats on the weight loss!!

take care

]]> By: Ron http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1206 Ron Sun, 15 Apr 2007 12:50:35 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1206 good stuff bro. I've got to tell you I'm proud to read that. God Bless you. good stuff bro.

I’ve got to tell you I’m proud to read that.

God Bless you.

]]> By: AaronM http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1205 AaronM Sun, 15 Apr 2007 06:58:56 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1205 If the Lord is your shepherd then you are nothing more than a sheep. If the Lord is your shepherd then you are nothing more than a sheep.

]]> By: Daniel Mendez http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1204 Daniel Mendez Sun, 15 Apr 2007 04:22:23 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1204 Dear Donny, Great come back after your bout with the suicide feelings...especially as a Christian. The irony of it all. What comes to mind is this. Satan teased Eve in the garden by telling her that if she ate, she’d be like God. Ironically, in Christianity, we are told that we should be like Christ, to be Godly, etc. So is there a contradiction? Perhaps in the Hebrew, what Satan meant was “Be God” (can’t confirm that now, though). Anyway, my point is that just like that similar scenario, in Christ we are told that we must die to self, be crucified with Christ, etc. and everything about dying. From a personal example: once going through a battle with bondage in a relationship, I remember crying out in front of the person, “I wish I could die”, and quickly, they yelled back, don’t talk like that. I then realized and explained to them, what I mean I wish I could die to self. Well, to cut to the quick, for everything God asks of us: to die to self, be Christlike, love, humble yourself, etc. Satan always provides a substitute perverted version of that as in: suicide, be your own God, lust, self pity, etc. Or is it visa versa, for everything we experience under the influence of Satan, God offers us the positive and eternally righteous alternative. It is therefore for us to catch Satan in his cunning and realize that all of what he offers, or all the suggestions we get in our ear to do it, as Sinatra sings it, “our way”, which is really ends up being Satan’s way, is plain out perversion of God’s very best and ultimately the failure to do it God’s way. It is to steal, kill and destroy us during the process and finally in the end. His plan from the very beginning. If only we could be as wise and understanding to see his purpose unfold, before we fall for it. As for the issue with Wendy, a definite heart break... But as long as there is life, there is hope. As I have said in the past, I will not make any promises. But your words and charm while important, can not make up for the sway of the heart that God can orchestrate if indeed what you hope for, is also His will. It is for you to dig into your relationship with God, and leave that part to Him. A suggestion here: read the classic book, “In His Steps” by Charles Sheldon. It supposedly takes place somewhare around the turn of the century (1800-1900 that is), but is so relavent even now. It’s where the initials WWJD or phrase “What Would Jesus Do” comes from. An incredible book, written as each chapter was series of sermons for several consecutive Sundays. Anyway, in the story, amongst other issues of life, and the challenge of what would Jesus do in this situation, is a powerful mix of love, priority and love in Christ, that plays out in an interesting scenario of two men interested in one girl... That’s all I’ll say. You really should read it all the way through though, to understand it all from the right perspective. Anyway, this is all for now, but I really see growth, and insight and God at work in a great big heart that God is making bigger everyday... Even as you get smaller... aka, from John the Baptist’s words, “He must increase and I must decrease”, not to mention the loss of 45 lbs. Hurrah! God bless you brother. Cheering you on!!! Danny Dear Donny,
Great come back after your bout with the suicide feelings…especially as a Christian.
The irony of it all. What comes to mind is this. Satan teased Eve in the garden by telling her that if she ate, she’d be like God. Ironically, in Christianity, we are told that we should be like Christ, to be Godly, etc. So is there a contradiction? Perhaps in the Hebrew, what Satan meant was “Be God” (can’t confirm that now, though). Anyway, my point is that just like that similar scenario, in Christ we are told that we must die to self, be crucified with Christ, etc. and everything about dying.

From a personal example: once going through a battle with bondage in a relationship, I remember crying out in front of the person, “I wish I could die”, and quickly, they yelled back, don’t talk like that. I then realized and explained to them, what I mean I wish I could die to self.

Well, to cut to the quick, for everything God asks of us: to die to self, be Christlike, love, humble yourself, etc. Satan always provides a substitute perverted version of that as in: suicide, be your own God, lust, self pity, etc. Or is it visa versa, for everything we experience under the influence of Satan, God offers us the positive and eternally righteous alternative.

It is therefore for us to catch Satan in his cunning and realize that all of what he offers, or all the suggestions we get in our ear to do it, as Sinatra sings it, “our way”, which is really ends up being Satan’s way, is plain out perversion of God’s very best and ultimately the failure to do it God’s way. It is to steal, kill and destroy us during the process and finally in the end. His plan from the very beginning. If only we could be as wise and understanding to see his purpose unfold, before we fall for it.

As for the issue with Wendy, a definite heart break… But as long as there is life, there is hope.

As I have said in the past, I will not make any promises. But your words and charm while important, can not make up for the sway of the heart that God can orchestrate if indeed what you hope for, is also His will. It is for you to dig into your relationship with God, and leave that part to Him. A suggestion here: read the classic book, “In His Steps” by Charles Sheldon. It supposedly takes place somewhare around the turn of the century (1800-1900 that is), but is so relavent even now. It’s where the initials WWJD or phrase “What Would Jesus Do” comes from. An incredible book, written as each chapter was series of sermons for several consecutive Sundays. Anyway, in the story, amongst other issues of life, and the challenge of what would Jesus do in this situation, is a powerful mix of love, priority and love in Christ, that plays out in an interesting scenario of two men interested in one girl… That’s all I’ll say. You really should read it all the way through though, to understand it all from the right perspective.

Anyway, this is all for now, but I really see growth, and insight and God at work in a great big heart that God is making bigger everyday… Even as you get smaller… aka, from John the Baptist’s words, “He must increase and I must decrease”, not to mention the loss of 45 lbs. Hurrah!

God bless you brother.

Cheering you on!!!

Danny

]]> By: Riggy Fargus http://www.donnypauling.com/blog/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/comment-page-1/#comment-1203 Riggy Fargus Sun, 15 Apr 2007 03:24:02 +0000 http://donnysramblings.com/2007/04/14/emotional-roller-coaster-a-healed-ear-and-a-45lbs-lighter-donny/#comment-1203 Years ago I read the Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis and there was one truth that sticks with me to this day: Satan's plan A is to make sure you never become a Christian. Once that happens, he switches to Plan B, which is to steal your joy and your victory and make it so that the only impact you have on the world is negative. You've got a lot of baggage you will be sorting through for some time (does it ever end? maybe for some, but not for most of us) but I am confident that if you press on an even-keeled maturity will develop. Hang in there. P.S. If God can change YOUR heart, he sure as hell can change Wendy's... Years ago I read the Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis and there was one truth that sticks with me to this day: Satan’s plan A is to make sure you never become a Christian. Once that happens, he switches to Plan B, which is to steal your joy and your victory and make it so that the only impact you have on the world is negative. You’ve got a lot of baggage you will be sorting through for some time (does it ever end? maybe for some, but not for most of us) but I am confident that if you press on an even-keeled maturity will develop. Hang in there.

P.S. If God can change YOUR heart, he sure as hell can change Wendy’s…

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