Yes, I was a porn producer for 9 years, contracting with Playboy and a group of other well known companies. Yes, I have become a Christian. And yes, I now speak publicly about what goes on behind the scenes here on this blog as well as at numerous Churches and Universities (including Yale University – WOOT!) across this great country of ours. But the reason I speak about what goes on “behind the scenes” of porn is NOT because I have become a Christian. I do so because someone needs to do so. Porn is often portrayed as great fun, happy go lucky, and victimless. The fantasy shown on screen seems fantastic. The realities of porn, however, are not even close. I am a firm believer in freedom of speech and expression, and it is my personal belief that education, not legislation, is what changes hearts. Therefore it is my goal to educate so that those who hear can make a more informed decision. If you’d like to begin the education process, start with some of the stories I tell in the porn stories category on this blog (click here).
My story would not be complete without mentioning XXXChurch.com. They are a group of non-judgmental Christians who love everybody and believe that there is nothing any of us could ever do to make God love us any less. They are a group who do off-the-wall things… like attending porn conventions to share love: doing makeup for the girls at the show and telling them they’re beautiful and loved. They don’t hold picket signs. They don’t condemn. They just love. When I was still producing porn I gave them hatred for 4 years… and in return received love. If you’re in the industry and looking for help, check them out. If you’re sick of looking at porn but for some reason cannot seem to stop, they can also help. Check them out. They listen to a call that really helped change MY life, and the lives of countless others.
ABOUT DONNY
I’m extremely proud to be a good father to a wonderful son. He lights up my life. Until having a child, I wonder if it’s even possible to fully comprehend what it means to love another person. I thank God (and my son’s mother) for the opportunity to experience such love.
Although I was raised as the son of a Pentecostal Pastor while growing up (Pentecostal Church of God), I began making my living producing pornography in the summer of 1997. I continued in the adult industry until Monday, September 25th, 2006. On that day I was driving in my car praying to God. If you’d like to know more of that story, keep reading below, as I share the first 3 pages of the book I’m writing, describing what happened during September 2006.
To find out what God has done in my life since surrendering it to Him in 2006, start with the “Chapters” section of this blog, where I’ve kept a running journal since that September day. Click here.
Finding jesus is the dumbest thing anyone can do. When you really get smart and wise up, you learn to disregard the fairy tales just like you did when you stopped believing in the tooth fairy and santa claus. Going ‘born again’ is like you’re going out of your way to dumb your entire existence down.
kinda like the spiritual equivalent of forcing yourself to sit through an adam sandler film
Rob
Finding jesus is the dumbest thing anyone can do. When you really get smart and wise up, you learn to disregard the fairy tales just like you did when you stopped believing in the tooth fairy and santa claus. Going ‘born again’ is like you’re going out of your way to dumb your entire existence down.
kinda like the spiritual equivalent of forcing yourself to sit through an adam sandler film
http://cazlab.avaricestudios.com/ Will
Faith is a dangerous delusion.
It is faith that allows for suicide bombers. It is faith that allows people to justify murdering homosexuals and blowing up clinics. It is faith that is exploited by criminal preachers to get the poor and aged to turn over their meager earnings so they can drive fancy SUVs.
You can live in the land of the sane and reasonable without resorting to debauchery.
There’s no need to believe in fairy tales. Shit, you’re a grown up after all.
Read the Bible. Really read it. There is a lot of weird crap in there that you cannot answer for. Unless you want to kill homosexuals and unwed heterosexual couples who live together, or endorse slavery and incest.
Christianity is a death cult. You pray for the end of the world so your crucified undead savior can kill 2/3′s of earth’s population in 7 days. That is not sane; you are dangerous
People like you are why our nation is falling behind in the world.
http://cazlab.avaricestudios.com Will
Faith is a dangerous delusion.
It is faith that allows for suicide bombers. It is faith that allows people to justify murdering homosexuals and blowing up clinics. It is faith that is exploited by criminal preachers to get the poor and aged to turn over their meager earnings so they can drive fancy SUVs.
You can live in the land of the sane and reasonable without resorting to debauchery.
There’s no need to believe in fairy tales. Shit, you’re a grown up after all.
Read the Bible. Really read it. There is a lot of weird crap in there that you cannot answer for. Unless you want to kill homosexuals and unwed heterosexual couples who live together, or endorse slavery and incest.
Christianity is a death cult. You pray for the end of the world so your crucified undead savior can kill 2/3′s of earth’s population in 7 days. That is not sane; you are dangerous
People like you are why our nation is falling behind in the world.
Leigh Kennedy
No,
That would be the kind of Faith that an extremist would have.
The faith of the true living God is not one that encourages murder,
The word even says ‘Thou shall not murder’, so don’t get the wrong idea, get your facts straight first.
It is deception that will lead to blowing buildings up and killing,
and no, it is not of God for anyone to kill a homosexual, the Word says ‘Love your neighbour as you love yourself’, it does NOT say ‘Love your neighbour as you love yourself but hate homosexuals’
Leigh Kennedy
No,
That would be the kind of Faith that an extremist would have.
The faith of the true living God is not one that encourages murder,
The word even says ‘Thou shall not murder’, so don’t get the wrong idea, get your facts straight first.
It is deception that will lead to blowing buildings up and killing,
and no, it is not of God for anyone to kill a homosexual, the Word says ‘Love your neighbour as you love yourself’, it does NOT say ‘Love your neighbour as you love yourself but hate homosexuals’
J. Johanneson
I am a 27 year old porn actress, and I couldn’t disagree with you more.
The industry is changing, even in the past few years, and so is society. So many young people now (high school – 25 years old or so) have been exposed to porn all their lives, that the stigma just isn’t there any more. I can tell people I do porn and nobody cares. My parents know and support me. The culture war on porn is already lost, I’m afraid. Your story is already as outdated as it is exaggerated through omission of the (much more common) normal people in the industry.
You exploited young women once by recruiting them for your porn, and now you’re condescending us and telling us how horrible our lives are. Is that progress?
Good luck with your book, I hope you make millions.
J. Johanneson
I am a 27 year old porn actress, and I couldn’t disagree with you more.
The industry is changing, even in the past few years, and so is society. So many young people now (high school – 25 years old or so) have been exposed to porn all their lives, that the stigma just isn’t there any more. I can tell people I do porn and nobody cares. My parents know and support me. The culture war on porn is already lost, I’m afraid. Your story is already as outdated as it is exaggerated through omission of the (much more common) normal people in the industry.
You exploited young women once by recruiting them for your porn, and now you’re condescending us and telling us how horrible our lives are. Is that progress?
Good luck with your book, I hope you make millions.
Anonymous
J. Johanneson,
Just a few years ago, my name could have signed your comment. I used those same arguments. Reality has a way of catching up, however, and the broken lives (my own included) are undeniable.
When you’re in the business, it’s just part of human nature to justify what’s going on. I’m not condescending in the least. And I’ve written about the “normal” people in the industry. Check it out here:
Should the time come when the emptiness inside catches up to you, and you want somebody to talk to, feel free to ask. Help is available should you ever want it.
In the meantime, feel free to join in any discussion you wish. I only ask that you show the same respect you showed with the comment you just posted, and refrain from linking to porn sites (thanks for not doing so, by the way).
- Donny -
http://www.donnysramblings.com Donny Pauling
J. Johanneson,
Just a few years ago, my name could have signed your comment. I used those same arguments. Reality has a way of catching up, however, and the broken lives (my own included) are undeniable.
When you’re in the business, it’s just part of human nature to justify what’s going on. I’m not condescending in the least. And I’ve written about the “normal” people in the industry. Check it out here:
Should the time come when the emptiness inside catches up to you, and you want somebody to talk to, feel free to ask. Help is available should you ever want it.
In the meantime, feel free to join in any discussion you wish. I only ask that you show the same respect you showed with the comment you just posted, and refrain from linking to porn sites (thanks for not doing so, by the way).
- Donny -
http://www.leighkennedymusic.com/ Leigh Kennedy
Donny,
It’s great to see you are still going strong with God!
God has a lot for you!
You’re a legend!
God bless,
Leigh Kennedy
http://www.leighkennedymusic.com Leigh Kennedy
Donny,
It’s great to see you are still going strong with God!
God has a lot for you!
You’re a legend!
God bless,
Leigh Kennedy
J.J.E.
Just a few years ago, I could have authored this website. I used your same arguments. Reality has a way of catching up, however, and the lives broken by Christianity (my own included) are undeniable.
When you’re in the faith, it’s just part of human nature to justify what’s going on. I’m not condescending in the least.
Should the time come when the emptiness inside catches up to you, and you want somebody to talk to, feel free to ask. Help is available should you ever want it. Just write me at the e-mail address I left with this comment.
J.J.E.
Just a few years ago, I could have authored this website. I used your same arguments. Reality has a way of catching up, however, and the lives broken by Christianity (my own included) are undeniable.
When you’re in the faith, it’s just part of human nature to justify what’s going on. I’m not condescending in the least.
Should the time come when the emptiness inside catches up to you, and you want somebody to talk to, feel free to ask. Help is available should you ever want it. Just write me at the e-mail address I left with this comment.
http://www.lightnshadow.org/ Bill Davenport
@J.J.E.
Sorry to hear that you were broken by “Christianity” … there’s a lot of crap out there passing off in that name … But sometimes people mistake practicing a “religion” with the true thing which is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ himself … it would seem to me that Donny has the latter and you experienced the former … and my prayer is that you will find Jesus, the same Jesus Donny has …
http://www.lightnshadow.org Bill Davenport
@J.J.E.
Sorry to hear that you were broken by “Christianity” … there’s a lot of crap out there passing off in that name … But sometimes people mistake practicing a “religion” with the true thing which is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ himself … it would seem to me that Donny has the latter and you experienced the former … and my prayer is that you will find Jesus, the same Jesus Donny has …
Dennis Warren
The link Donny provided (for J. Johanneson) doesn’t appear to be working :
As of Monday March 15, 2010 – below link doesn’t work (for me anyway) :
Thanks for sharing, Donny. I just found you through a comment you left at Big Is The New Small. Thank you for getting out into the comments of other blogs to share your experience.
Yes, I was a porn producer for 9 years, contracting with Playboy and a group of other well known companies. Yes, I have become a Christian. And yes, I now speak publicly about what goes on behind the scenes here on this blog as well as at numerous Churches and Universities (including Yale University – WOOT!) across this great country of ours. But the reason I speak about what goes on “behind the scenes” of porn is NOT because I have become a Christian. I do so because someone needs to do so. Porn is often portrayed as great fun, happy go lucky, and victimless. The fantasy shown on screen seems fantastic. The realities of porn, however, are not even close. I am a firm believer in freedom of speech and expression, and it is my personal belief that education, not legislation, is what changes hearts. Therefore it is my goal to educate so that those who hear can make a more informed decision. If you’d like to begin the education process, start with some of the stories I tell in the porn stories category on this blog (click here).
My story would not be complete without mentioning XXXChurch.com. They are a group of non-judgmental Christians who love everybody and believe that there is nothing any of us could ever do to make God love us any less. They are a group who do off-the-wall things… like attending porn conventions to share love: doing makeup for the girls at the show and telling them they’re beautiful and loved. They don’t hold picket signs. They don’t condemn. They just love. When I was still producing porn I gave them hatred for 4 years… and in return received love. If you’re in the industry and looking for help, check them out. If you’re sick of looking at porn but for some reason cannot seem to stop, they can also help. Check them out. They listen to a call that really helped change MY life, and the lives of countless others.
Watch Craig Gross and I debate Porn Stars Ron Jeremy and Monique Alexander at Yale University on ABC’s Nightline Face Off – click here (then scroll down to where it says “Nightline Face-Off: America Addicted to Porn?”).
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