Donny's Ramblings

I’m sitting at Starbucks in Chico, California surfing the T-Mobile Hotspot. I have a monthly recurring account because I really love the ambiance of Starbucks. It’s a great place to sit and write.

On my IM list I’m having a conversation with a homosexual I knew from my days in the porn industry. He has a heart of gold and needs to know Jesus loves him no matter what others might say. He’s telling me that he and his boyfriend are doing well. I think he’s a fantastic person, and I can’t understand why fundamentalists give people like him such a hard time. Have we all lost sight of the message Jesus came to give? I don’t think so. Jesus loves John Paul as much as he loves your Pastor.

Today I took a trip to Chico just because it’s such an awesome little town. The population is 90,000 but it has the culture of a town 10 times that size. They have this little lounge called “Monk’s Wine Lounge and Bistro” that I love. I had three glasses of a very good Chardonnay, along with some cheese and roasted garlic. Yum!

Yesterday I moved out of my house. The bank took it back. It was for sale for several months, but no acceptable offers came in. Am I bummed? Nah. I don’t really mind. Credit will recover with time. I could have stayed another two months, but they made me a cash offer to be out by this past Friday. I took it. I was a little bummed but was resolved not to cry. I didn’t quite make it. I cried for a total of 10 seconds. It’s not the same as the house I just moved from, but the new place is pretty decent. Last night was my first full night there, and I slept like a baby. This morning I took a shower in a normal sized shower. I’m used to having a lot more room.

I’ll adapt.

I had an amazing day with Wendy and Caden today. Wendy and I are such great friends. I’d go into more detail, but Wendy thinks this whole blogging thing is a bit odd. She doesn’t completely understand it. For that reason I’ll keep her out of it as much as possible. She also dislikes it when newspapers interview me. She deals, though.

My family is very happy my brother surrendered his life to God last week. I am too. I knew he would, just as soon as he heard the message of Jesus’ love, rather than condemnation. As I said before, there’s nothing unattractive about love.

Life is good. I look forward to each new day.

I made many friends and acquaintances during my years in the porn business. Several of said people happened to be gay. This particular group of people, in my opinion, are amongst those most hurt by Christians.

Once again people, being a “Christian” means you’re supposed to be “like Christ”. Did HE ever once judge anyone for their sexual preferences?

Before I go any further let me explain why this has come up today. If you’ve ever posted on message boards you’re probably aware that most of those who participate use a nickname. On one of the boards I’ve been posting on for more than 4 years there is a man who uses the nickname “BoyAlley” and refers to himself as “Teh BoyAlley”.

I have a lot of love and respect for this man. He has raised a lot of money for charity. He’s a sensitive person who is very funny. He seems to have a heart of gold. But, understandably, he feels gay people are persecuted by Christians. When someone asked me on that message board if my newfound Christianity would affect how I feel about “Teh BoyAlley”, I responded with this:

Why would I feel any differently about teh Boy Alley? He is still teh sexy!

Seriously, don’t lump me into the preconceived notions you may have about Christians.

Why is it that I have to repeat, over and over and over again, that I’m not trying to change what anyone else does with their life?

PS: Feel free to quote all the Leviticus scriptures you want, Mr. Asian Diva whatever dude. Tell me how I’m hypocritical for x, y or z.

In that same thread, “Teh BoyAlley” wrote:

I’ll just say, that Teh BoyAlley has donated thousands and thouands and thousands of dollars over the years to organizations that exist to help defend myself, my partner of 8 years, and millions of other homosexuals, from the FUCKING GOD DAMN HORSE SHIT that Jebus fucking jackasses try to legislate down our throats and up our asses.

Christians can go on and on about how “they don’t judge people” and how they’re “entitled to their beliefs”, but at the end of the day, THEY’RE THE ONES forcing their fucked up world views on people like my partner and myself.

My opinion is that I have no right to judge anyone. I’m just going to love everyone to the best of my ability. And I oppose legislating how others act in their bedroom. Seriously, why is that my business?

“BoyAlley”, I love you man! And I’m going to do everything in my power to try to be a representative of what a true Christian should be. I know others claim to be non-judgemental and then turn around and try to force their beliefs down your throat. I promise I will do everything in my power to never do that to you. It is my job to show you the love that Jesus would show you. That is a big job and a big challenge. I hope I can live up to it.