Archive for category: God

New Revelations from Old Knowledge

Just a quick note: Growing up a Pastor’s son, I was expected to win Bible quizzes. That being the case, I memorized and studied a lot of scripture. It always bored me. I loved winning Bible knowledge contests, but talking about the Bible, for the most part, bored me almost to tears. It meant nothing [...]

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The Bee Lie Bee Lie Eee

Categories:Bible, Books, Caden, Children, Donny Pauling, God

Today is exactly one month since “the surrender”. It really feels like much longer than that. My ex-wife has always been a Christian. I’ve mentioned that before. As such, she has always taken my son to church. I’m telling you this so that I can now make sense of the title for you. It refers [...]

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There's More to It Than Meets the Eye

At risk of sounding even kookier than ever before, I have to let out a bit of the excitement I feel inside. The best way for me to do this is to write. Writing is my release. And you, my constant readers, play your part in helping me find that release. I’ve been doing a [...]

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Dear Pastor Tom

The following is an email I sent to “Pastor Tom”. The backstory is this: On two separate radio shows Tom has voiced his opinion that the pastors of XXXChurch have made unwise decisions when setting up their booth on the show floor of porn shows. He says this because he has a hard time believing [...]

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Almost 1 Week

(this is being reposted from my old blog) It’s now been almost a week since I’ve given up porn to surrender my life to God again. And what a week it’s been. Several people have been supportive. Others… not so much. To put it mildly. Surprisingly, some of the biggest supporters of this decision have [...]

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I'm Out, But the Blog Abides!

(reposted from my old blog, where I used to discuss stories from my life as a porn producer) Don’t you hate it when people politicize things and make grandiose speeches to get across even the most mundane topics of conversation? So do I. So let’s see if I can avoid that for you. I’ll really, [...]

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